Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Song of Thanksgiving

A thankful heart, thankful in all things...

Hard to do right now.
With money tight,
and dreams dead,
and families closer than breath.

God, help me see the good things-
the happy smiles,
the full bellies,
the children safe in their beds.

God, you have provided all-
our family home,
our screaming car,
our jobs and friends,
even the dreams in our hearts.

So, on you I will cling-
on you I will call-
To you I will sing.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Home From Surgery

I'm home!
Wasted tired and on some serious pain meds, but home. =)
So far, I can't really tell if it's made a difference; however, I have noticed that my left hand isn't numb all the time like it was.
My left arm was numb from about my elbow down, and had patches of numb spots on my bicep. I hadn't started dropping things with that hand yet, but I think it would have started soon.
So far, I have gained feeling back in my hand (YAY!) and I'm hoping to see a change in my pain level.

Friday, November 05, 2010

High Stress

Today has been so horribly awfully stressful!

I went to pick up my travel vouchers for our flight to Anchorage, and found out that Jake wasn't approved to travel with me. Our insurance would not pay for him to come, which we were expecting, 'cuz when we had this trip planned in August they were paying for him...

I discovered that all the changes in health care stuff since then boil down to Jake not getting to come til the end of the week. The insurance has agreed to pay for Jake to come get me and take me home, but not to be there when it happens or during my immediate recovery. Is that weird, or what???

So, we've been trying to figure out how to get him down there with me.
And I've been falling apart.

Yes, I know God will be with me, and that technically I will not be alone.
Yes, I can do all things through Christ;
However, I don't think I can fly to Anchorage and go through with this after expecting Jake to go with me...
So, we've been making last minute phone calls and trying to figure it out.

I swear I've felt like I couldn't breathe today...

Thursday, November 04, 2010

My long Absence

Next week is my spinal surgery.
I have two ruptured discs in my neck which will be removed, then the surgeon will slap a titanium plate in there.

I'm not sleeping.
I'm reading a crazy amount of books.
And I'm not really feeling terribly creative, either.
So, I expect there will be a hiatus from writing on this here blog.
I HOPE to get back to it when it's all over, and life is normal again.

In addition to the worry and fear, I'm also taking quite a bit of pain killers right now, 'cuz the busted discs squeeze down on my spinal cord and hurt.
So the pain killers are also killing my joy in fun writing.