Sunday, December 12, 2010


I feel incapable of keeping up with anything right now!
I kind of started to feel better after my surgery, then I got a cold, which turned into bronchitis.

When I had my "one-month-after-surgery" appointment, they told me that people frequently get bronchitis or pneumonia after surgery because of the difference in breathing.

I have had the weirdest experience with breathing after this surgery- I don't know whether it's because they had a tube down my throat to make sure I could breathe while they moved my esophagus and everything over, or just a result of ANOTHER surgery... But it's like sometimes I forget to breathe. And I'll be sitting there, and then be like "I need some air!" And then I'll breathe again. Weird.

And I've been coughing after swallowing water or soda- like I forgot how to breathe and drink... Worse after soda of any kind. Don't know why, but it's WEIRD.

So, I'm starting to recover from the bronchitis. We'll see how quickly I'm back up to normal.
Ready for some NORMAL!!!!!

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

Going to Miss This

‎"You're going to miss this
You're going to want this back
You're going to wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're going to miss this"
by Trace Adkins

First off, you need to know I DON"T listen to country music. I don't like most of it and the songs I do like tend to be OLD.
However, my cousin shared the lyrics to this song on FB, and it struck me.

As much as I hate not having my own kitchen, living room and dining room-
As much as I long to have my own bathroom to decorate my own way-
As much as I hate cleaning up after my mom and sister-
As crowded as this house is-
As much as I am tired of my mom telling me 'the correct way' to do something-
As loud as this house is with 6 people-
And our finances so tight-
And living in the cold and dark of Alaska-

There will come a day when I look back on this time as precious:
Because of my girls being little & giggly.
Because my mom is right here when I need her.
Because I can leave my girls with my mom to go grocery shopping.
Because I bead with my sister in the evening.

God, help me look at the positive side of living here with my family so tightly squeezed into this house. Help me remember to enjoy what I have before it is gone.